I don’t enjoy smoking

I don’t enjoy smoking.

It’s this unbearable knowledge inside me…

I don’t recall learning it….only always having had it.

It sits quietly in the most secret place inside me….

It sits quiet and calm like an old tired man…

Like a hidden pond in the deep of the woods.

And sometimes You like to take a dip there.

And you agitate it…and then I can’t bear it.

I can’t bear knowing what I know

So I frantically light up…just because…

Mostly because I must do something else,

Do something other than the unbearable knowing.

You see I don’t enjoy smoking.

 

~ by elfish dawn on September 20, 2014.